How To Breathe In Pink Seas

Her eyes bright, pastel blue
Lay themselves in front of me
I’m lost again,
In an ocean of colours
I didn’t realise I could feel

Teach me, teach me
How to breathe again
Just like you did before

Bright lights, bright lights
They keep blinding me
I just want someone to take me home
Paint me pastel pink
And replace the black and white
Like you did before

And how, how are you?
I keep talking about myself
But I wanna know how you are
I wanna know every damn detail
About you

I keep rowing, rowing this boat out
Thinking I’ll find something
So far from where I am
But I’m left coming back
I guess home is where the heart is
So I should stay stationary

Her bright hair, mermaid pink
Lays itself out in front of me
I’m lost again
In an ocean of colours,
I didn’t realise I could feel

Teach me, teach me
How to breathe again
Just like you did before

Pastel Peaches Match The Velvet On Your Skin & The Taste Of Your Lips

Eyeshadow pallets, they stroke you
The pastel covers your eyes like a blanket
And your lips get pinker than any kiss could ever make you
I’m washing myself up on the shores in your eyes
And like most guys I’m promise I’m not just thinking about your thighs

I’m slowing myself down
Cause peach trees only grow with time
And I think pink hair’s a sign
That I’ll make it to twenty seven
And I hope you’re my heaven

I wanna be the velvet dress that touches your skin
While you’re leaving my emotions paper thin
I hope I make you feel safe again
Because I think of you as more than a friend
I’m sorry I ended up complicating things
But I know what tongue I’ve been searching for

I’m slowing myself down
Cause peach trees only grow with time
And I think pink hair’s a sign
That I’ll make it to twenty seven
And I hope you’re my heaven

I’ve been cultivating cacti
Cause they connect with me
But I want to taste peaches
Because I think that’s what your lips taste like

Dopamine//Serotonin

It’s half past three
I’ve stopped making sounds
I’ve stopped breathing around
All this pointing to me finding a lacklustre kiss
Creating feelings that I’ve missed
You know how much I hate fantasies
When they don’t match the images in my head

Dopamine and serotonin deficiency
Creating a bloody mystery
Dopamine and serotonin deficiency
I’m still loving you miserably

The reflection of perfection in your eyes
Makes me remember that I’m missing me
Th reflection of perfection in your eyes
Makes me remember that I shouldn’t be holding on
But there’s a frizz in my hair
Making my heart want to blow up like a bonfire
While a fizz in my blood wants us to fizzle out

Dopamine and serotonin deficiency
Creating a bloody mystery
Dopamine and serotonin deficiency
I’m still loving you miserably

The Coast Is Filled With Velvet Tangerines

Pink angels and sunsets
Your skin is like crystal clear stardust
You’re rounding out my edges
I’ve stopped giving myself death threats
Because velvet makes my skin feel softer

Heaven doesn’t deserve your beauty
And the devil’s too greedy to appreciate it
So stay next to me so I can appreciate it
While I pray that I won’t fuck whatever this is up
While I pray that I won’t fuck whatever this is up

I’ll sleep better knowing you’re next to me
And I still find it funny you’ll wake up before me
Just to do your makeup
But that brush doesn’t realise it’s lucky enough
To stroke your cheek
And your lipstick doesn’t realise it’s lucky enough
To kiss your lips

Heaven doesn’t deserve your beauty
And the devil’s too greedy to appreciate it
So stay next to me so I can appreciate it
While I pray that I won’t fuck whatever this is up
While I pray that I won’t fuck whatever this is up

I’m finding it hard to write this one cause there’s so much
I wanna say
But Dan Campbell says it best
“I woke up older carrying two years in the bags under my eyes”
So I guess this city has nothing but the coast has everything

Things That Rhyme With Bed

I’m losing friends like I’m losing time
I’m losing myself like I’m losing sense
It’s sad when the wet dreams in your head
Don’t match the girls that are swimming in your bed
I’ll still hit you up for validation that I’m okay
I’m narcissistic, pessimistic
It’s probably a little twisted that everything still reminds me of you

I guess my nightmares feel like fantasies
And I’m haunted by the ghosts of my past
Mistakes I’ve made that I won’t erase
So I can torture myself daily
Underneath a God complex that only says maybe

Right now I’m struggling to find any words
So Jaimie Lenmen speaks for me
“Oh validate me pretty please”
And set me free

The Coast

I’ve got a lot of compliments for you
Cause your pink hair’s flowing like the sunshine on my skin
The end of winter has left my heart paper thin
And I think twenty is the most scared I’ve ever been
If you stay I think I can be brave
Maybe I’m hard wired to chase the glistening in your blue eyes
That remind us of diamonds and why men chase them

I wanna be the makeup pallet you use
So I can kiss your skin daily
And honestly that would be a dream
But if I’m being honest I’d rather kiss your lips
Little velvet tangerines could decorate the floor
I hate making promises cause I’m not sure
I’m ever good enough to keep them
But I’ll learn what it means to keep score

If the coast is where your home is
Then I guess the coast is where my heart is
If the coast is where your home is
Then I guess the coast is where I’ll lay my head

Bend//Break

If we’re talking about letting people down
Then I’m the one who’s wearing the crown
If we’re talking about twisting tongues
Then I guess mine’s been in enough mouthes
Maybe it was to get to you
Or maybe it was to get through to you
Cause green eyes and envy go hand in hand
But you don’t have green eyes
And I have a burning in my throat

I’m not bending, I’m breaking
I’m not sending a message
I’m not bending, I’m breaking
I’m self destructing again

If there’s a crowded room
Filling us both with a heavy gloom
Then I guess we’ll see who caves in first
And who approaches who again
Although we both know things won’t be the same
The cold always bothered me
I’m impatient waiting for the sun to come up
And melt my skin like the touch of yours did

I’m not bending, I’m breaking
I’m not sending a message
I’m not bending, I’m breaking
I’m self destructing again

Watch me cave in
Watch me break thin
I’m just hard wired to break myself down
So I can build you up

I’m not bending, I’m breaking
I’m not sending a message
I’m not bending, I’m breaking
I’m self destructing again

Validation

Cherry lips so plump I could pluck them
Press them against my body
Tell me what you want me to feel
With every bruise left by your leathering
My skin feels like the stars are exploding underneath it
My hairs are standing on their ends trying to escape
From what you’re making me feel

I’m listening to the sound of your breath
Telling my neck everything it needs to hear
I’m listening to the sound of your breath
Validating me with every atom

Your nails dig deeper into the cracks
Creating waves of euphoria in my chest
Leaving scars exposing my heart
Tear it out and keep it for yourself
Since I have no use for it
Since you need it more than I do

I’m listening to the sound of your breath
Telling my neck everything it needs to hear
I’m listening to the sound of your breath
Validating me with every atom

Treat me like I belong six feet under
Closer to the core
Maybe a heart that could actually love me?
Replace my broken one

I’m listening to the sound of your breath
Telling my neck everything it needs to hear
I’m listening to the sound of your breath
Validating me with every atom

Waves

You look so chill
When you’re swaying
With that vodka orange in your hand
I know you love it when we’re both drunk
Blue eyes ostracising my lips
Until they’re against yours

I hope you’re picturing sunlight
Cause I want you tonight
Are you sure that you want me?

You look so chill
When your arm’s around my neck
With your eyeliner’s wings looking so deadly
I know you love it when my lungs are green
While copper eyes are trying to picture me and you

I hope you’re picturing sunlight
Cause I want you tonight
Are you sure that you want me?

I’d let your black curls
Mix with the brown waves on my head
To create the sea of me and you

I hope you’re picturing sunlight
Cause I want you tonight
Are you sure that you want me?

Ring

Dopamine fills your lungs
While the taste of your lips fills my mouth
The ashes lay on beds
While fires start on the pillows
We’re laying ourselves to waste
I’m trying to say I can still stay
But my head says run
Like Secretariat my legs start going once again

Please let the silence ring
Expose my scars and let them sting
Please let the silence ring
I wish to hear you sing

I’m crossing the Ts on my Xs
While your mirror stays beautiful
My infatuation with seclusion from myself
Grew into an infatuation with your company
A natural desecration of myself
Static on TVs and synthetic images of everything in my head

Please let the silence ring
Expose my scars and let them sting
Please let the silence ring
I wish to hear you sing

There’s a chill in the air
Making it smell like it should be snowing
But the snow reminds me of your skin
Like the cold would remind you of me
There’s a chill in the air
Making it smell like it should be snowing
And like the snow I’ll crash into the ground
In perfect silence

Please let the silence ring
Expose my scars and let them sting
Please let the silence ring
I wish to hear you sing